Friday, 05 February 2010

  • One Day, Some day....soon hopefully.

    Past News
    So it's been forever since my last post...simply because it's only been bloodtests, ultrasounds, OBGYN visits and work. Thanksgiving and Christmas were thrown in there somwhere...as well as New Year's and my little niece being born. None of those I can say were great events.

    I hosted Christmas at my house this year (plus worked Christmas eve, Christmas Morning and New Years) and the whole time my fiancé's parents kept calling me by my pregnant sister in-law's name, which really got annoying to tell you the truth. I guess they were just so excited to become Grandparents and focused on Melissa, but I guess I was doubely hurt that I worked so hard to make everything nice and cooked for days to not be appriciated or called by my own name on first try. And then my neice came in early January (you can read my first blog post about that). I felt I really came to terms with it- but I when I went to visit in the hospital I was really Really emotional. I didn't get all those happy butterflies like I think you're supposed to- instead I felt utterly depressed like I had my heart pulled from my ribcage. So I did what I do best and handed her off and hid behind my camera as best as I could.

    When Chrisitan (future hubby) posted them on face book, many of our friends commented on how cute she was and gave us congradulations on being a new Uncle and Auntie- and then there was Christian's brother's comments in there...about how "damn right she's beautiful, I'm her daddy" and "how Christian only wished he could be a father but I beat him too it." etc. I really do believe being proud and humble has a fine line into just being rude and hurtful. He really did just over comment and to tell the truth, it makes me not want to be around Alex and Melissa just for that reason. I'm happy they are happy- but he didn't have to say such arrogant things infront of all our friends and family on facebook...guess that is the down side of facebook. If Chris and his Brother weren't related by blood, I don't think there is any way they'd ever be able to stand each other. We are just all such very different people.

    Present News
    I just finally ovulated over a week ago. I know it is a bit personal but I can't hold my excitement and I though blogging about it might help me find a release and not using my last pregnancy test till it's time. The OBGYN showed me on an eco (Ultrasound) the egg and my Uterus. Everything was looking good do far. With in 4 days I was becoming neaucious and vomiting. The day after that I noticed some spotting and have been getting really small cramps in my uterus...not painful- but noticeable (also a high basal temp and excellarated heartbeat). Normally before my period I always get them in my ovaries and my back....so I have a sneaking suspicion that I might be pregnant. I thought I was crazy for feeling these things and was sure I was making it all up but when I talked to my OBGYN yesterday on the phone she said it might also have to do with the fact that I don't regulate my hormones normally I might be more sensative to the new hormones my body could be creating.

    So now it's just the waiting game I guess....7 more days till I can officially take my pregnancy test!

     

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